Monday, September 27, 2010

April 8, 2010

I ordered Graviola and Obijwa (Cassie) Tea capsules today. The Maitake mushroom blend is on its way from Mom. I found a bow tie and a girlie ascot and brown velvet jacket at thrift stores today. I still need some form of vest for J.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

April 7, 2010, part 2

Mom is sending me Maitake mushroom caplets, I'm also ordering Graviola from the amazon and buying Cassie's tea next week.

I'm holding firmly to my belief that God gave us the right plants to help our bodies heal. My faith is not in the herbs, but in God's provision to Adam, Noah, etc. God gave us all we needed. HE is the Great Physician!

I have an appointment with Dr. P, the chemotherapist, on Monday, 4/12; then another appointment with Dr. H for a pelvic exam. Yea! :( Then another CT scan. Double yea :( . I think I can deal. Needles aren't that bad. There are worse things, like major abdominal surgery.

BTW! DS is doing a photo shoot for our family at S----- Park on Saturday. He does free pics for cancer patients. We're doing Alice in Wonderland pics and straight up family pics. I'm so excited.

I've got almost everything together for it: costumes, mismatched teacups, even a hookah! KP and JB really came through for me: teacups, teapots, tablecloths, etc.

I have lingering pain in my right pelvic-hip area, and I'm unable to lift my left knee much more than normal walking height.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

April 7, 2010, part 1

We saw Dr. H, oh, one day before Mom went home. Here's what we're looking at:

5 weeks / 5 days a week external radiation
5 weeks / 1 day a week internal radiation

The internal radiation requires twilight sedation by IV. :{
However, it is only 5 times.

Dr. H implied that I would by receiving 7 doses / 1 per week of chemotherapy in conjunction with my radiation. I cried after the appointment.

So now I have numbers running through my head. 25-7-5, 25-7-5, 25-7-5.
Doable numbers.

I had dinner with SM and her parents on Monday night. S's mom has been treated for ovarian cancer for 2 years. Chemo only. She said she'll probably be on chemo for the rest of her life. It breaks my heart, but it also scared me.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

March 29, 2010

Dr. T called this morning. The one lymph node they tested during surgery was positive. We knew that. All other lymph nodes and my ovary came back negative!
Thank you, God! Such a relief.

On Saturday, SM, EP, JR, Midge and Mom came over for my birthday party. SM brought shepherd's pie and butterbeer, decorations and art supplies. EP brought trifle.

It just ends there, but we had a great time together. Food, movie, painting, gifts - it was good to have some girl-time after being in the hospital and feeling really lousy.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

March 26, 2010

On the phone... waiting, waiting. I really need some direct numbers.

So, someone will call me back...

On Monday.  :(

Monday, August 30, 2010

March 25, 2010

I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord.
Psalm 118:17

I haven't gotten my pathology results back and I'm freaking out. They said it would take a week and it's been exactly a week. Every time I have some test result that I'm waiting for... well, I just haven't gotten any good test results lately.
For whatever reason, an envelope on which I had written Dr. M's office address has disappeared and I had some security blanket thing tied to it. So I kind of went a little crazy trying to find it. It didn't even have her number on it. Now I'm waiting for mom because I need to apologize.
I think my pain meds affect my emotions - as in, I don't have any.
I just have moments of getting frantic about something.

Friday, August 27, 2010

March 23, 2010

Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.
I Peter 4:12-13

So I've skipped some things. Last week, we were in G'ville almost every day.
I went to my consultation with Dr. M on March 12. She was very confident and factual and I felt comfortable with her as my surgeon. We scheduled my surgery for March 18. We went back Tuesday for lab work and a CT scan. I had to drink 32 oz of Gatorade laced with iodine over 1 1/2 hours. Then I had to have an IV. :( They passed me through a donut and the contrast was weird and hot, like sitting on leather interior in the summer. The tech told me I would feel like I had wet myself. {great}
I wish we hadn't gone out for dinner. I woke up very ill at 3 am. I finally threw up at 4:30 and was able to get a little sleep.
Wednesday was my pre-op appointment and also clear liquids day. More lab work. Most of my day was spent in the bathroom. :|
Thursday we got to S----- at 8:30 am. I got called in to anesthesia to get set up. Oxygen, IV, O2 sensor, tummy block. They put me out to give me shots in the stomach.
I barely remember going into surgery - just bright white lights. I woke up in recovery with a morphine button clutched in my hand. I was in recovery 4 hours waiting for an open bed. They finally wheeled me down the hall, in the elevator, down, through a tunnel under the street, another elevator, up, and to my room. I had to scooch over into my bed.
I was getting frantic. They couldn't find J. I couldn't see because he had my glasses. I couldn't reach him on the phone because it was long distance. When he finally made it to my room, I sent him right back out to get my glasses.
I think I dozed off while he was gone.
At some point, J came and sat by me. He asked if I was coherent enough to talk to him and understand what he was saying. He told me that I had NOT had a hysterectomy.
Dr. M had found some lymph nodes that had cancer in them. She also removed my right ovary because it was enlarged and some surrounding lymph nodes for testing.
I was going to need to go through radiation to eliminate the cancer.

It wasn't over. I have treatment to go through. I was drugged enough that I didn't react emotionally.